I used to be a frequent blog reader, now I'm kind of over them. The ones I've read have been entertaining at best, but most of them have turned into overly-popular blogs (turned way cluttered tacky websites) like the Pioneer Woman, or they've gotten too deep and personal (won't mention). Mostly I'm just bored by the middle road.
Maybe you see this blog that way. Not sure where I'm headed yet though, so thanks for bearing with me.
I don't really post so I can win "faithful readers". I write for myself. I guess that's where I have an issue with some blogs I used to love. Either too preachy or too public in their personas, I don't get a sense of the writer anymore - it's just a character. Christian women I've followed tend to just be cheerleaders about life (much appreciated, but not always necessary), others have been frivolous at best, cooking blogs tend to get pretty image driven... and on and on. I'm picky, what can I say?
I'm not sure what I'm looking for in a good blog. The reason I kept up with some was because I felt like I was catching up with a friend every week, very authentic voices, personal, but not confessional (after all we are strangers). I also don't have a great deal of time to read during the week, so it was nice to spend ten minutes reading someone's opinion, recommendation, or reflection of something in their life.
I don't know if I'm not looking hard enough, but I can't seem to find that anymore.
There are no stores, speaking engagements, great personas to be maintained on this blog, I assure you. But I want it to be more than just my space to note life's challenges and whine. I want to feel like I can stretch out like a lazy cat and open up, to write about things that are personal, nerdy, spiritual, or mundane... I want to feel free to write well, and poorly; talk about exercise and the baby; what I'm reading, how I'm voting, what concerns I have about the world I'm in... but I hestitate... I hesitate for weird reasons: people's opinions of me (even though the comments are off); whether I'm really saying anything of interest; Is this a blog people read and pass by... Am I interested in what I'm saying?
I'll keep writing... I'll keep thinking and becoming whatever it is this is going to be.